What does this dream mean according to relationships,yze it please can you?

suppose you have been in a loveless,pionless and abusive marriage for many years and you fall in love with someone else even though they are only your friend and you have no idea what the other person feels about you.One night you have a vivid dream of sleeping with someone you just met and don't even like,the feels good for the time being but you feel absolute disgusted and guilty afterwards more guilty then you have ever felt,and then when you wake up from this dream you cuddle up next to your husband even though you do not have a good marriage and are glad it was only a dream,but still in your heart feel flutters when you think of that friend you learned to love.Would this mean you are guilty for being with your husband against your love or your love against your husband?